go www.download.com and get "Pocket Tanks" funny and interesting game lol and i am aware now of how everything's gonna be fine one day.. too late, i'm in hell i'm prepared now, seems everyone's gonna be fine one day too late, just as well... Daily Mood Swings "Fine Again" - Seether

my sec sch finally agreed us to set up a campfire for our campfire (previously it was a "canfire") and it is really cool, though we lack the skill to keep the fire going and all, but considering its our first time, so i guess the sec 3s have really done a fantastic job. and its a great evening talking to ex-squadmates, seems that all of us upon graduation have gone on diff tracks, as in joined diff ccas and so we hardly have time to talk. decided to watch another movie with them. "sweet home alabama".. quite a funny comedy, argh dunno why the sudden influx in romantic comedies these days but well.. actually i was thinking of watching halloween resurrection cuz its midnight and provides a great atmosphere but its a sucky show anyway. juz reached home. damn sleepy. tmr still got tuition. you are the life to my soul.. you are the purpose.. you are everything. Daily mood Swings "Everything" - lifehouse

my future is currently bleak. tomor's training is the last thing i'm looking forward to, and i skipped harmoc again, putting my 80% attendance into greater danger. honestly, don't see training sessions like trying to pass a ball while making it stay on the air have any constructive use on my physical well-being, much less my fencing skills. so why are we having it in the first place.. and what's wrong with free fencing? what's wrong with the coach getting up from his freaking couch and give us individual remedial once in a while- at least for 2 hrs a day, 2 days a week. what's wrong with the coaching fees! i can't stay invisible anymore! i'll remember every word you said this time i won't look away come back in time, come back i remember i would soon be dead. Daily mood Swings "Pitiful" - Blindside

strange that the effort he puts in building an ivory tower around him can be crumbled effortlessly in the spur of the moment when his mind takes over, then he is given a choice of starting from scratch or continue screwing himself out. and then the extent a person can go to make himself perceived in a special way can make him lose himself but only when he loses himself he loses it too, and then he thinks about it and he regains his top form and then life goes on with but a slight difference, the slight impact he has created recklessly and unconsciously.

huren's house rocks... a lot of comp connected.. can play multiplayer games.. yea went there juz now.

The Harry Potter Fortune-Teller

you are the life to my soul.. you are the purpose.. you are everything. Daily mood Swings "Everything" -lifehouse

total bullshit. =P

you said you love me you love me again but if you love me where have you been? you said you need me more than anybody else well go to hell where have you been? Daily Mood Swings "Where have you Been?" - Reel Big Fish

he doesn't know what he's doing. forgive him, will you? he thinks he hasn't opened his heart for everyone to see, but in fact, everyone understands, and no one blames him for not knowing himself. no one has ever doubted him despite what he thinks. so. he apologises, and smiles. life is beautiful. =) she's beautiful, as usual, with bruises on her ego, and her killer instinct tells her to beware of the evil man and that's what you get for falling again you can never get 'em out of your head. Daily Mood Swings "Pretty Girl" - Sugacult

i'm damn pleased with myself, i've finally realised why my ball always turns right when i bowl. i had for so many years thought that releasing the ball with your fingers pointing horizontally forward will make the ball go straight, and only juz now i discovered that the ball is specially designed to tilt right if you do that. hence, i've improved my score from 30 odd yesterday to 50 odd today. (played 3 games - 53, 54, 54- damn consistent) i know its still fucking lousy, but i'm happy still. shit i fell asleep yesterday and missed "Scrubs" for the second time! there goes another half an hour of non-stop laughter. shit training starts tmr! dunno why but i just have this unseen hatred toward fencing training. could be the coach? the captain? that i'm lousy? dunno. i just abhor fencing. fear in me... so deep... it gets the best of me. in the fear i fall, here it comes face to face with me. here i stand hold back so no one can see i feel these wounds. step down... step down... step down... Daily mood Swings "Downfall" - trust company

had tuition in the morning, learnt about magnetism afternoon, joined a few tuition mates to mambo billiard for a few rounds of pool. tried different styles of bridges, all producing equally atrocious results, just as i expected =) then watched red dragon, which really rocks. this time around, compared to the previous hannibal and silence of the lambs, the serial killer is a much more complex character as the show delves deeper into his thoughts via hannibal lecter and will graham. this prequel shows us the deranged intelligence of hannibal lecter as we have seen in his past shows how he repeatedly played cat-and-mouse games with insp starling. fortunately this show has a happy ending. ignore the dreams, too many lies somewhere deep inside... somewhere deep inside me i found the child i used to be and i know its not too late, never too late. Daily Mood Swings "Nessaja" - Scooter

went sajc open house today, had a great time catching up/chatting with ex-schoolmates, tuition buddies and a few irc friends. the mass dance was pretty cool, the theme dance used the tune of "loaded" by ricky martin. then the other dance was the long-forgotten macarena. fucking hell tmr tuition starts. -_- and its compulsory if i want to stay, and that sucks because its prior to promo results release and all the more we should have fun. and tmr i'll be further enlightened by electrical currents only taught to other ppl in year 2. damnit. will watch red dragon tmr. but hell i shldnt complain, vj is even worse, they have lectures and tutorials now at this point of time. and i wun be surprised if they are required to come down during hols for extra catching up on their academics. zzz.

had open house yesterday.. was fun and all, guiding all the eager beavers-well, not all- around the school compound, got rejected umpteen times but still, i guess i deserve it since i rejected my guide when i went to my sch last yr.. ah well i felt damn bad yesterday, like i din go for all the mass dance, except for the last one which i performed disastrously. the moment the open house ended, i knew the cleaning up would be tough, hey i did more than what i should do k, carrying chairs in classrooms not even in my allocated cleaning areas, damn, and waited in the bloody sch for a long time, for zy, then waited some more in buona vista mrt, missed some 20 trains (?.. ok maybe not 20 but definitely more than 10) before we proceeded to outram. damnit i din know what made me so stupid, waiting for sum1 for dinner when we couldve juz umm eat first and let the latecomers join us later but then.. damn i'm so stupid. later we went to outram to eat prawn noodles, according to patrick it tastes really great, and it did actually =) but the cost is ugh. i brought $5, enough to pay for my share of noodles, then realised that there are THREE October babies there, and finally it struck me why we had dinner yesterday... oh man, lucky shi qing brought extra money.. (actually i got more than $10 with me, but lent some money to liou) holy shit i shouldnt be complaining about money since everyone else paid more than me, but what the hell i'm absolutely horrified by the rate of money leaving my wallet in the past few days, i actually ate at "luxurious places" (outram prawn noodles is a luxurious place) three times this week.. firstly it was mandarin hotel, then fiesta, and now this, and juz a few days ago signed up for sat (eighty dollars gone) and the worst things i've done in my life, were watching two damn comedies in which i enjoyed, but do not have a special liking. (earnest and deeds) i said i did not regret watching, ok that's the truth only if i dun spend so much on everything else... and the thing is.. i'm watching red dragon later again... oh man the pains of spending too much money... and i guess i wasn't myself yesterday, felt like crying after reaching home thinking about all the money spent, and began on a whining session, scared the shit off qingxiang lol. phew, after a great night's sleep, now i'm finally back to my so-called sane state of mind, and conclude that SAT is a necessity, so are the luxurious meals, and as for the movies, i shall skip the oasis concert to make up for that =) and today is SAJC and ACJC OPEN HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!! thinking of going sajc to visit kenneth, and other friends, incl. those i know via IRC, but in the end, i'm still stuck here at home, because i'm feeling lazy now. =P way upon the mountain where she died, all i ever wanted was your life. deep inside the canyon i can't hide, all i ever wanted was your life. Daily Mood Swings "Dosed" - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

whoa watched a shit load of shows these days... watched The Importance of Being Earnest yesterday, pretty hell funny , not in the form of antics but rather the way the words were spoken by the characters in it, though i spent like 3/4 of the show trying to catch up with the plot and changing the storyline for my convenience along the way..about these two guys using the same alias "earnest" to their own advantage, and god knows what made them come together, and their affairs became very much intertwined since, bringing on a string of hilarious results and a happy conclusion. (it's a damn girly show, after 30 minutes frm the start, 5 guys in front of us left the cinema, and we are the only guys left in the whole theatre, but i dun regret watching =)) really a great contrast to Requiem for a dream before that.. which is really bloody hell depressing that it can just ruin your day. at night watched American Psycho, a black comedy about a guy unsatisfied with the society he is in, and the feelings mounted inside him makes him vent his frustration in the form of imagination of , well, having unnatural sex and killing girls, then chopping up their bodies.. do not wish to comment more on that.. we only know about this supposed twist to the plot in the end by the way, the whole show is about the sex and killings, which we all along were misguided to think is reality, together with the so-called killer. downloaded this show from kazaa since i know i'll never be allowed to watch it in theatre. =P then, today watched Mr Deeds, another romantic comedy about this guy who accidentally inherited his grand-uncle(???)'s fortune of 400 billion(???) dollars, and an ambitious reporter who disguise herself as a maiden in distress in order to find out more about him and publish it to the public... ending with a minor twist but otherwise predictable all lovers end up together conclusion. intend to watch Red Dragon this saturday, heard it's another great show way upon the mountain where she died, all i wanted was your life. deep inside the canyon i can't hide, all i wanted was your life. show love with no remorse and climb on to your seahorse as this ride is right on course Daily Mood Swings "Dosed" - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

juz watched "Requiem for a Dream" it is undeniably the most depressing and disturbing show i have watched in my life. four people, with four different aspirations, four different dreams. shattered, and sent spiraling downwards to the doomed path. a single mother who is drifting away from his son, a junkie, wishes to be recognised and loved, and pinned her false hopes on a scam telling her that she will appear on television. as a result gets hooked onto diet pills in an attempt to fit in the red dress she had worn in her son's graduation day. meanwhile, her son and his girlfriend are saving up to set up a big business involving fashion, via the road of drugs, and with the help of their friend, a small low-down drug dealer who aspires to make a name for himself someday (i think he promised his mother that before she died.. not sure.. the show's damn subtle). ultimately, its drugs that killed all of them, that shattered their dreams, hence the title. holy shit, i swear i'll never take drugs in my life =P they held each other and kissed, and pushed each others' darkness into a corner, believing in each other's light, each others' dream... -Hubert Selby, Jr. things are never gonna be the way you want. when's it gonna get you acting serious? Daily Mood Swings: "Praise Chorus" - Jimmy Eat World

made a trip to esplanade opening ceremony, the fireworks were pretty fantastic and i must say it is comparable to that of national day's, really cool. only that it produced haze enough to cover all the buildings which is just like one street across from my sight. as for the other programs not really that good.. saw some fire spewing boats, some women hanging on some wooden branch, supposedly doing acrobats (which i can't catch much, if any, due to the crowd and lack of light) and yea in the end got some band performances, which we, 80% of the crowd, gave a miss. then reached home at midnight, played jedi knight unitl now. 4 straight hours lol, but that isn't enough. =P i will never bother you, i will never promise to, i will never follow you, i will never bother you never speak a word again, i will crawl away for good. i will move away from here, you wont be afraid of fear things have never been so swell, i have never failed to feel pain.................................................. you know you're right. Daily mood Swings: "You Know You're Right - Nirvana"

was watching the news juz now.. about this feud between an english-speaking family vs the rest of his neighbours across the street. lol damn funny watching both sides give their arguement.. which actually stems from a very simple reason, the english family is arrogant and wanted not be associated with the other chinsese-speaking ones, who then was so pissed off and recorded the way they behaved (really bastardy in my humble opinion) and showed off their wealth etc... the english retaliated by insulting them whenever they walk past, beats me why they are so free as to stand at the window whole day waiting for chance to scold. then tensions b/w both sides are really big now, that this storm-in-a-teacup is even in the news now. i'm on the chinese-speaking families =) because i'm chinese-speaking myself, and also because, they are really xiao zhang lar.. i mean i look at some fellow schoolmates and i can imagine how irritating they are. sheesh intend to play jedi knight the wholenight and tomor early morning going vj open house to disturb the organisers =P i get what i own don't let the feelings that i choose cuz everybody else do Daily Mood Swings: "Outtatheway - the Vines"

had chinese today, which is, quite frankly speaking, the least of my concerns. the compo i chose to do was the narrative, and ended up writing about a moral epic on how my mom gradually found streetside beggars not what they seem to be. agreed, its damn clichèd but it was the best topic to select from (others include how to make singapore a caring society and why teenagers smoke) arrrr feel the storyline is damn kek but what the hell... paper 2 had a question which produced a series of utterly hilarious responses from many of my fellow chinese-takers, but hahahahaha i got it correct. =) having my fingers crossed now, in exactly 24 hrs from now, i'm going to get back my life which has been cruelly unjustifiably snatched away by the merciless hands of promos since the start of last month.. wonder if it is still well and intact, or already cease to exist. and zp had better bring jedi outcast if not i will cry, really. sometimes i feel i've got to run away i've got to get away from the pain you drive into the heart of me Daily Mood Swings "Tainted Love - Marilyn Manson"

ok i can finally hear it the psyched cries of liberation approaching now.. promos this yr, unfortunately, of all the major exams i've undergone,is the one which will probably produce the worst results. heh heh it hasnt even ended yet but my trusty prognosis says that i'm going to screw up my chem as well so far things haven't been too gratifying for me.. the first paper i really bungled up was general paper in which i think i am going to fail the comprehension miserably.. composition wasn't too good either, due to insufficient time i choose to end my essay with a brilliant cliffhanger. Greed is good but... if it is a piece of narrative maybe i can still argue that it is a sophisticated style of epilogue physics is rather ok, made a few mistakes in mcq section but overall is not too far behind many others.. essay is fine save for the momentum proving section which i can't solve the second portion (and anything that goes after this) structured section is where most grazes are, with all the major mistakes in the circular motion and electric charge section i should be expecting a high C... or, a low B? not holding my hopes too high though. bio is near catastrophic. i'm going to borderline scrape through section a and b with probably 50% but i think i'm going to fail section c. if i take an optimistic view i can say i'll probably score a E.. maths. the subject i have zilch aptitude in, and as i intelligently forecasted yesterday, fucked up pretty badly. lets see.. my grasp for functions/graphs, trigo and complex numbers and vectors is the weakest. and lets see the qns i skipped in first attempt. 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 10, 14, 15. (out of 15 qns) on second attempt, i did half of 3, half of 10, half of 14, and half of 15. which means not counting the careless mistakes, the fucked up sfs/solution sets/rejected with reasons/plus minus signs i did 6.5 questions out of 15. so while other ppl are betting on high As, i am languishing in the midst of uncertainty whether my maths is an O or a F. so there. grrrr... how i wish there is jedi outcast now for my to transfer my stress and frustration onto. but zp forgot to bring. shit! now i'll have to contend with my stress ball as a substitute. all.... all my hate cannot be bound. i will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming. so you can try to tear me down beat me to the ground i will see you screaming. Daily Mood Swings "Thoughtless - Korn"

fuck maths.

grrrrr... fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths fuck maths... -_- doing the promo 2000 math paper fucking question 14 i used the trigo and can find the intersection.. but couldnt when i used coordinate geometry method. imagine this. downloaded graphmatica. typed in equation 1. typed in equation 2. and you can obviously see intersections between these two. but sub equation 2 into equation 1 you get a weird graph and an error msg. this is precisely what i get when i calculated by hand. no one seems to be able to help so i had to resort to graphmatica and fucking hell it gave me the same fucking reply and now i have no fucking idea where i went wrong.. and probably after 3 hrs of thinking i'll realise its some fucking careless mistake of my part and yea my day is juz wasted like this. and mind you such problems are realllllllly very common whenever i do maths. ccb maths is definitely one subject i do can vomit blood. i reallly need transfusion now. there'll come a day definitely when i die and still not know what the cause of my death is. thanks to maths i've lost my faith in numerical humanity... have a nice day. always...always...always...always...always...always... Daily Mood Swings "Always - Saliva"

Buzz buzz, I am Coffee flavoured. I am popular in the workplace, even though I am often bitter. I am energetic to the point of being frenetic; buzz buzz, out of my way. I tend to overwork myself and need periods of recovery time. What Flavour Are You?

i'm tired and i feel it for awhile now in this sea of lonely the taste of ink is getting old it's four a.m. in the fucking morning each day gets more and more like the last day still i can see it coming.. ..being half-dead wasn't what i planned to be now i'm ready to be free. Daily Mood Swings "Taste of Ink - Used"