THIS is so fucking funny LOL!

it's a birthday festival! last sunday.. kai's bday! still rem three years back i bought him a nike bottle only to receive back a pack of condoms for my bday... that bastard lol! then, if i'm not wrong, tomorrow is a colleague's bday, teck's bday i think. then, thursday is slut's bday! then, for today, happy bdays to.. isaac, han boon, my cousin stephanie (hope u get well soon..), uncle kenneth.

i've always thought that japanese movies are unfathomable, (think audition, battle royale, ichi the killer, freeze me) and then i just watched Suicide Club; it just further proves my point. basically the whole show is just about the apparent rising trend of mass suicide (the show begins with a group of 54 girls jumping on a railway track just as the train is about to arrive, with rather bloody results) and the detectives sent to investigate this case initially thought it's probably a cult or a "suicide club" or something but "things are not what they seem to be"... took me damn long and three spoiler reviews to finally get a vague picture of what the director is trying to say. something about living in a conformist society that kills your life etc. after understanding the whole show, i realised that it's not a bad film, plus it's gory! =D woman cutting off her fingers one by one with a knife, roll of stitched human skin, head being run over causing eyes to come out of sockets... what a feast!

All I know Is everything is not as it's sold but the more I grow the less I know And I have lived so many lives Though I'm not old And the more I see, the less I grow The fewer the seeds the more I sow Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness And all the real people are really not real at all The more I learn the more I cry As I say goodbye to the way of life I thought I had designed for me Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try Then I see you standing there I'm all I'll ever be But all I can do is try All of the moments that already passed We'll try to go back and make them last All of the things we want each other to be We never will be And that's wonderful, and that's life thats you baby This is me baby we are, Free In our love.. We are free in our love "Try - Nelly Furtado"

for those who do not know yet, i'm OOC (out of course). supposedly in every CMC batch there will be four service medics selected to join the SAF public health sector to be a Public Health Assistant. After some "rigorous (?!)" selection, about 24 of us are shortlisted and from these 8 are chosen for interview and from these 4 are finally selected to be the PHA. This vocation is definitely my dream vocation... wait, wrong. It used to be what i've always wanted to be doing. 8 to 5 job book-out everyday (apart from the 6 week stay in course) and working in a totally non-regimented environment... what else can one ask for?! maybe a few more medic guys to join me so i won't be feeling so lonely or even outcasted over there. it's like now i suddenly want to attend the medic course, the stay-in course, instead of going home everyday because...seriously... i missed everyone there. working with 10 or so people who came from the same platoon and therefore knew each other very well (hence i'm sort of quite extra) isn't what i expected this job to be. hopefully after some time things will change (shrug?) as usual i have this fear of new environment, just like when i first entered college. (and realised isaac and han boon are in my class and was thinking wtf?! the two fierce and intimidating guys in my class? oh no i'm dead. LOL.) being alone throughout the day while knowing my fellow medics are together certainly made me rather depressed these days... the people there are nice though. well anyway today i finally started talking to a few of my colleagues... there's this nice cd which i bought two days ago... called 'euro techno go'... yea i've sort of downgraded to this sort of music but i have to say some of the tracks in it are really fantastic. in fact i deployed my musical expertise and created midi and handphone versions of "face to face", "miracle" and "come home". woot... fun fun. while zp is experimenting with cameras i'm experimenting with .. umm.. this time-wasting profession. heh. the second part of hellboy is nice. (i fell asleep in the first part... slept at two yesterday.)

i tot it would be the worst clubbing experience... but it turned out ok after that =)

ok so it's three more days to the start of my SMC (service medic course). had the first experience of military atmosphere today (after what seemed like so long ago) when my SI - think it's supervising instructor?- gave us a briefing on what to expect, what to bring, what to do in the next 11 weeks to come. his strict tone really brought me back into the realisation that i'm still under this regimented syndicate. when he announced that he would be in charge of the service medic platoon (that's my platoon) i went 'fuck shit' i'm gonna die under him. but then again he seemed approachable.. in a way... so maybe that's not so bad. who knows other platoon SI may be even worse? i'll have to buy -orange cloth - SAF issued soap and utensils -shaver by monday for the stand by beds. and dig out my possibly 'seh kor' field pack and SBO and my cheong sua boots (which has become my parade boots after i've been wearing my parade boots to camp the past two months) supposed to cheong today.. but ah fuck it. anyway already did last week. don't waste too much money. decided to stay at home. (tomor have to report at camp at 6 am. fucking early sia) didn't join the medics in hagaan daas for some 'chiobu sightseeing' session as well. teeth hurts due to my retainers (yes my braces are removed) so can't eat ice cream. also just ate at hagaan three days ago. don't waste too much money. went to watch passion of the christ yesterday. the gore wasn't as much as i had thought it would be.. but it's the replaying of the whole crucification that makes the movie so powerful i guess. it had spurred two criminal confessions... powerful indeed. anyway my phone rang halfway in the show... annoying a lot of ppl around me. it's the first time it's ever happened.. i've always hated those who refused to turn off their phone when they enter the cinemas.. but now i'm one of them. heh. good luck for my course. -_- gotta learn how to stay in bunks... again.